The End of the Tunnel

You know that saying, “I can see the light at the end of the tunnel?”  I think that applies really well here.  No I don’t think my motherhood years were a period of hardship or adversity, but I certainly had “tunnel vision.”

That focus on children is a great thing.  It helped me stay on task to raise my children well and I certainly tried to keep good parenting skills in the forefront of my mind.  I focused my world around raising good people and creating relationships that would grow well into my children’s adulthood.

But now as I am ending my walk through the tunnel, holding the hands of my dear children and focusing on teaching and nurturing, I can see that there is a bright future for ME at the end of this tunnel.

There are the obvious things that I hope come with being  a mom with adult children; Grandchildren (we’ve already started on that one) and watching my children succeed or fail and try again in their lives and careers.  But what I’m seeing as I draw closer to the end of the tunnel, are the opportunities for me personally.  I feel kind of guilty.  I think all moms can identify with that.  We have spent many years sacrificing sleep, time, money and some of our dreams for our children’s needs and dreams.  I don’t regret any of those sacrifices, I gave those things very willingly, but it’s hard to all of a sudden try to be, kind of, well, selfish.

I have a list of things that I am going to dabble in or jump right in to when I get out of the tunnel.  I still have 3 1/2 years, but my youngest is a lot like me and we enjoy doing some of these things together already.  So here is my list; What’s on yours?

  • Painting, specifically watercolor
  • Drawing
  • Digital artwork, I really like computers too
  • Sewing, specifically more in the clothing area
  • Blogging
  • More physical activites
  • Traveling to all 50 states
  • Jewelry making

So I also have a list of things that I do now, but want to do more of or get better at them:

  • Yoga
  • Remodeling our 100+ year old Craftsman Bungalow
  • Photography
  • Scrapbooking
  • Card Making
  • Digital design

Are you ready to dream?  Just a little, just for you?  I would love to hear about the things on your list.