You know that saying, “I can see the light at the end of the tunnel?” I think that applies really well here. No I don’t think my motherhood years were a period of hardship or adversity, but I certainly had “tunnel vision.”
That focus on children is a great thing. It helped me stay on task to raise my children well and I certainly tried to keep good parenting skills in the forefront of my mind. I focused my world around raising good people and creating relationships that would grow well into my children’s adulthood.
But now as I am ending my walk through the tunnel, holding the hands of my dear children and focusing on teaching and nurturing, I can see that there is a bright future for ME at the end of this tunnel.
There are the obvious things that I hope come with being a mom with adult children; Grandchildren (we’ve already started on that one) and watching my children succeed or fail and try again in their lives and careers. But what I’m seeing as I draw closer to the end of the tunnel, are the opportunities for me personally. I feel kind of guilty. I think all moms can identify with that. We have spent many years sacrificing sleep, time, money and some of our dreams for our children’s needs and dreams. I don’t regret any of those sacrifices, I gave those things very willingly, but it’s hard to all of a sudden try to be, kind of, well, selfish.
I have a list of things that I am going to dabble in or jump right in to when I get out of the tunnel. I still have 3 1/2 years, but my youngest is a lot like me and we enjoy doing some of these things together already. So here is my list; What’s on yours?
- Painting, specifically watercolor
- Digital artwork, I really like computers too
- Sewing, specifically more in the clothing area
- More physical activites
- Traveling to all 50 states
- Jewelry making
So I also have a list of things that I do now, but want to do more of or get better at them:
- Remodeling our 100+ year old Craftsman Bungalow
- Card Making
- Digital design
Are you ready to dream? Just a little, just for you? I would love to hear about the things on your list.